Recovery and Restoration
For some reason I have been procrastinating sitting down and writing. I have been thinking a lot about what I will share and put down on paper, but I just haven't been able to do it. This time between the last chemo and now has been so bittersweet. I am very happy that chemo is over and to leave behind most of the effects. To think that I will only continue to gain strength and clarity is overwhelming; for this I am incredibly grateful. But...I am also scared. Here's the deal, because I am triple negative, I can't take any of the hormones to keep the cancer away. In fact, there is nothing I can take, I have to really walk in my faith and trust God. Sure, I will modify my diet, exercise more, stress less, and follow any road that may guarantee that I will be a survivor for many, many more years. But I feel empty, alone, and scared. Perhaps, this is why I have prolonged the writing; I wasn't ready to admit that. Today, in less than two hours, I will have my medi -port rem...