Can you see the forest through the trees?

Today I am struggling to see the forest through the trees? In a matter of 2 hours, I now have the dates for my next surgery (metaport installation), my chemo class, and my first round of chemo.

You would think I would be prepared and ready, since it is after all through a series of appointments and phone calls that I went to and made that brings us to these dates. However, I feel like I just ran into a brick wall with my bike. Suddenly, this is all real, again. I also hate to ask for help, thankfully, we are blessed with many who haven't seem to tire of our needs thus far. Next Wednesday I will get my port installed and on 9/10/10 I will begin my 12 week journey of squeezing the life out of my cells so that cancer doesn't stand a chance.

It is funny, because it is time to get back to reality. The kids start school, at their new schools on 9/7 which is also the day I get back to work, at least part time. So, while we start our lives anew, in our new home with new schools, friends and routines, we also go back to the old familiar routines..work, softball, gymnastics, karate, homework. I will be happy for the old familiar, hopefully it will help me get through the unimaginable.

What is a girl to do when they feel lost? Go shopping, that's what. I may not be able to see the forest, but I can see the sales.