Perfection
Spring is one of my favorite seasons. I love the newness of it, the fresh grass, flower buds, even checking what weeds are trying to make their way into my garden. I always have visions of all that I will do through the next few seasons while the weather is warm and I can be outdoors mulling about. The newness of Spring has me shopping - not just any shopping, shopping for my next adventure. Soon, I will begin to re-build Amanda. The past year has been about stripping me down, cleaning out the bad stuff, and kicking cancer's ever loving ass. Now, I am rebuilding - reconstructing. I have interviewed several doctors and it is really hard to decide which one to choose. We are so blessed to live in this age of medicine and choice! I am so blessed not to have a medical plan that limits my choices...but with lots of choice comes tough decisions. I think I have made up my mind, I have surgery scheduled on May 25 and I pray that I am making the right decision. Only time will tell and my faith can carry me through this journey. Luckily, this recovery will be easier and it is all good times, for real, from here. No more tears, this is a time to celebrate and rejoice in Spring and second chances!
Now...I wanted to share a strange moment I had. On Sunday, after working out, I was in the locker room and I walked by this woman changing in the middle of the room. Normally I pay no mind, but suddenly I was stricken by her presence of breasts and my lack of. It was a strange moment of gratitude...one that made me remember that we all should be so thankful for what we have...not sad for what we don't. I think too many of us long to be something we are not. God is funny with his little whispers...why in the world would he whisper to me in this way...lol. I dare not call him perverse, but seriously, I am praying that his next whisper is not in a women's locker room. SO...for all of you whining about putting a bathing suit on or whatever your gripe is about your body - stop, think, and rejoice - I know this is corny, but it is true, if I had known then what I know now, I would have been more grateful.
Thanks for listening. :)
Now...I wanted to share a strange moment I had. On Sunday, after working out, I was in the locker room and I walked by this woman changing in the middle of the room. Normally I pay no mind, but suddenly I was stricken by her presence of breasts and my lack of. It was a strange moment of gratitude...one that made me remember that we all should be so thankful for what we have...not sad for what we don't. I think too many of us long to be something we are not. God is funny with his little whispers...why in the world would he whisper to me in this way...lol. I dare not call him perverse, but seriously, I am praying that his next whisper is not in a women's locker room. SO...for all of you whining about putting a bathing suit on or whatever your gripe is about your body - stop, think, and rejoice - I know this is corny, but it is true, if I had known then what I know now, I would have been more grateful.
Thanks for listening. :)
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