Sleep and friends

How is it possible to sleep for 36 hours? I never quite understood the fatigue and chemo-therapy, let me tell you, it is not a choice. Your body just takes over and whether you like it or not, want to or not, you are down. You just sleep. Last week, before the last treatment, I asked the Dr. what I could do to fight the fatigue. I really can't stand being "down" for so long - life is whirling by and I am sleeping!!! He chuckled and said, I could try exercise but I would be lucky if I could get a 10 minute walk in on the tough days. This is just what is does to you. I am not complaining...I am grateful for the medicine that takes aways many of the side effects and eases others. I suppose sleep is what the body needs to come back from being stripped down.

I decided that for my next and LAST (YEAH!!!) round of chemo, I am going to try to blog each day...what it feels like. You don't have to read it...lol. While I will be ready to move on and celebrate life, I don't want to forget this fight. There are little things like the loss of taste, smell, hot flashes, bone pain...that are just worth recording. It makes me appreciate the ordinary things of life. For example, I really miss pedicures!! I can't have one now, but it is one of the first things on my to-do list! There are so many little things we do in everyday life that I miss and I am excited to get back to. I hope that my blogging about it, will keep me grounded, never forgetting the hard fight that this has been yet knowing how blessed I am to be able to hear the victory bell.


This journey is amazing...you learn so many things about yourself, about those around you...who is in your corner, who is just a sideline character. The answers have amazed me, some have devastated me. People I would have expected to be by my side, wiping up my tears...aren't - but they are there in other ways - ways that I suppose are what God intended. On the other hand, God has blessed me with so many friends and support that I am in awe, every day. I have met some of the most incredible people, who have impacted my life in ways that they will never know. People who have inspired me to not only tell my story through this little blog, but who I intend to help champion this fight. Women have to know that while this disease can kill you, there are ways to improve the odds...I will become an advocate and I will not be quiet.


It brings tears to my eyes to think of how far we have come...and to know that I am almost on the other side of this. Thanks for listening.

I think this is a rant, but it is 4:00AM and I am coming off a long nap!!





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Unknown said…
We're here for you!
October 28, 2010 at 6:00 AM
Regina Francis said…
Thinking about you this week and today a lot. Isn't today your last treatment? Even though I can't be there physically, know that I am there holding your hand in spirit! God Bless!
October 29, 2010 at 6:09 AM
Tst said…
Not the last, one more!!! One more Regina!!! I can do it!
October 29, 2010 at 10:05 PM
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